Bored but should be busy

Has been a bit since I actually posted anything. I have the distinct problem of having a large to-do list. To-do list help me organize myself and not forget anything, but they have a drawback for me too in that I can then see how much is on my plate. When I have a large to-do list I look at it, freak out and then do nothing. Then I do all the small stuff on the list, feel very accomplished and give myself a break for a reward so that the big stuff just ends up piling up. I know this pattern, I've worked through it before but the motivation is always such a supreme effort. I always find friends in need or cleaning or books or something to keep myself from doing work until I get motivated by panic. I must work on this more. I intend to attempt again after class this afternoon, here's hoping.