Musings

Am now in full finals swing. I need to pack, I need to study, I should not have gone to the 12:05am showinbg of "Return of the King" (though it rocked) and I should not go to dance, but I am. I've been thinking about my last entry, about pieces I meant to say and missed, and maybe I'll add them eventually, but not now. However mostly I've been thinking about how it's out there now, forever. Ever time I reread it my heart squshes (rhymes with mushes)up. Though I needed to write it and am glad I did and the comments were all positive, I still wish I could recall it, take it back. It's weird, in it I had said that I wished I could be more open and give more of myself to people and all I really want to do is take it back now. i may feel different when its less new and my school stress is done for the semester and the various pains that are vying for control of my physical frame have been dissappated, but right now I wish it were still in me and not out there.