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My birthday is less than a week away and it doesn't feel like it's time for it yet. I'm too busy, too tired and too stressed to care much. When I start to plan stuff for it I realized that a bunch of my friends will be away. Twenty-two isn't a big birthday anyway so it's hard to get too excited about it, but it also feels like it's part of the whole growning older thing, birthdays just aren't special anymore. There won't be streamers, or presents with bows, or even colored roses on my cake (there will be chocolate roses, but it's not quite the same). I'm not really even expecting any cards. My aunts have mostly stopped sending them, my great-aunt doesn't really know when my birthday is anymore I don't think and my grandma has passed on.

Ok now that's done with I need to stop being mopey and meloncoly and self-pitying, be happy I'm having another birthday and start figuring out what more I need to order before school starts.