Me

[asdr83]

So Sunday I went to Needham for the first church service after the break (UU's break for summer). I love this service because it is always the water ceremony. Each household brings water from someplace they were over the summer and says a sentence about it. Church was standing room only by the time the service started so it took about half an hour to do the water (and then we had meditation, sermon, etc.). My church is well travelled. water from Hawaii, Wales, Rome, Water collected by a parishoner last year with her husband when they could not be at the water service due to travel, poured in now on her own since he passed on two weeks before summer break. Water from pre-Katrina New Orleans. The hymns and responsive/unison readings were all about the waters of life and death, the sharing of our world. The sermon was more political than usual, entiled "All God's Dangers". My minister has a classic fire and brimestone voice, it was moving, but now i cannot remember much of the specific content, ranting about lack of support for the hurricane victims and the ineffectual government and the War I'm sure, but specifics have fled me. The feeling of needing to do something that it fueled is all I remember. I cannot go down and I do not have $ to spare so I went home and found all my old toys that were in at all good condition and bagged them up for rufinia's drive to help. My old Barbies were trapped in the attic, but I intend to get them free in time for the toy drive at church.

I took the toys and toiletries over to SCA event where they were being collected and then met a new greenwood girl and then hurried home to do work. I carefully freed myself of all responsibility so I could focus on school. Now I find myself swamped with work anyway and feeling lonely and useless. I want to cry more often than I should, considering I have nothing truly awful happening in my life. I'm trying to be thankful for everything I have, but rationalizing loneliness rarely works. Hopefully this small depression will go quickly on its way. Meanwhile I need to find ways to be useful and helpful. I need to do my work and clean my house and I somehow I will make time to see my friends as well.

Completely unrelated note: The new organ (1882 Hooke and Hastings) in my church makes the music a thousands time better and makes the service much more spiritual.